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Saturday, July 21, 2007 SimpLe PLan - Perfect
Hey Dad Look at me Think back and taLk to me Did I grow up according To plan? Do you think I’m wasting My time doing things I Wanna do? But it hurts when you Disapprove aLL along And now I try hard to make it I just want to make you proud I’m never gonna be good Enough for you I can’t pretend that I’m aLright And you can’t change me ‘Cuz we Lost it aLL Nothing Lasts forever I’m sorry I can’t be Perfect Now it’s just too Late And we can’t go back I’m sorry I can’t be Perfect I try not to think About the pain I feeL inside Did you know you used to be My hero? ALL the days You spent with me Now seem so far away And it feeLs Like you don’t Care anymore And now I try hard to make it I just want to make you proud I’m never gonna be good Enough for you I can’t stand another fight And nothing’ aLright ‘Cuz we Lost it aLL Nothing Lasts forever I’m sorry I can’t be Perfect Now it’s just too Late And we can’t go back I’m sorry I can’t be Perfect Nothing’s gonna change The things that you said Nothing’s gonna make this Right again PLease don’t turn your back I can’t beLieve it’s hard Just to talk to you But you don’t understand ‘Cuz we Lost it aLL Nothing Lasts forever I’m sorry I can’t be Perfect Now it’s just too Late And we can’t go back I’m sorry I can’t be Perfect ‘Cuz we Lost it aLL Nothing Lasts forever I’m sorry I can’t be Perfect Now it’s just too Late And we can’t go back I’m sorry I can’t be Perfect Hi...in this entry...i've decided to go very frank and direct...no more games guessing and beating ard the bushes.... i can't describe how i feeL rite now...a mixture of soLemnness, depression, disappointment, sadness aLL mixed up together...and definiteLy heart-wrenching... a Lot of things..i wouLd always act non-chaLant and say nvm to it...but deep down in my heart...i reaLLie cared a Lot...and it definiteLy matters a Lot to me... Jie...had i not read Ceb's bLog...i wouLdn't noe dat u guys wouLd b going out today w/o mi...not to mention ytd... I noe...u guys wouLd tink nothing of it...its juz a dinner n outing... Gosh...i reaLLie duno...if i didnt sms u today...does it mean dat i'LL b forgotten... This tot...this feeLing of heLpLessness....is too much for mi to withheLd... I dun wana surpressed my feeLings animore... I dun wana run away frm this prob animore... It's been a Long treacherous 7 months...and everyday...i wouLd juz tink about it... Does our ten yrs of frenship reaLLie mean nothing aLready?...Is it not gonna withstand the test of time?... I reaLLie tot dat we have bonded weLL and cLose in the past...naiveLy...dats not the case... I've reaLLie no idea where to go from here... To Jie and Ceb...I've reaLized dat i'm always Left out from your mini gatherings...was it intentional?...or was it with good intentions?...i seriousLy duno... Is it becuz of Xu's dat side?... I can teLL you guys sincereLy dat...both groups r equaLLy impt to me... Jie and Ceb...i reaLLie do not wish to know dat u guys r distancing yerseLf frm mi bcuz of Xu... Xu and SY...same goes to you too... Guys...i reaLLie feeL dat we should sit down and tok 1 Last time...and den decide where we go from there...whether you aLL become 2 separate grps frm den on or patch back...at Least there's an ans and end to it....I'm reaLLie tired of this ambiguity of not knowing u guys wana get back together or nt... I've aLways been plagued by frenship woes... 1st cai.... then my army frenz... now this... What's reaLLie going on?...Does the probLem reaLLie Lies with mi? I've stiLL got so much to say...but i dun tink can carry on animore...its too much for mi to handLe rite noe... SimpLe PLan - UntitLed I open my eyes I try to see but I'm bLinded By the white Light I can't remember how I can't remember why I'm Lying here tonight And I can't stand the pain And I can't make it go away No I can't stand the pain How couLd this happen to me? I've made my mistakes Got no where to run The night goes on As I'm fading away I'm sick of this Life I just wanna scream How couLd this happen to me? Everybody's screaming I try to make a sound But no one hears me I'm sLipping off the edge I'm hanging by a thread I wanna start this over again So I try to hold onto A time when nothing mattered And I can't expLain what happened And I can't erase the things that I've done No I can't How couLd this happen to me? I've made my mistakes Got no where to run The night goes on As I'm fading away I'm sick of this Life I just wanna scream How couLd this happen to me? I've made my mistakes Got no where to run The night goes on As I'm fading away I'm sick of this Life I just wanna scream How couLd this happen to me? CasaNova's TeaRs, 1330 Hours Squall Leonheart... |
