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Final Fantasy-
Why do people depend on each other?
In the end you're on your own
I'm fine by myself now
I have all the skills I need to survive
I'm not a child anymore ..
That's a lie
I don't know anything
I'm confused
I don't want to depend on anyone
How can i do that ?
Someone tell me .. Someone?
So i'll end up depending on other after all .
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Sunday, May 27, 2007

Another week has passed by juz Lidat *snap fingers*

Posted a new song...固執 by 陳柏宇
couLdnt find the chn ver...its caLLed 堅強 for the chn ver
been pretty addicted to it ever since i heard it frm 933 a few nights ago...he's a newcomer i tink...

GSS has kicked off a few days ago...mayb i shouLd do some shopping Later...LoLz...but i'LL watch my pockets...hopefuLLy

Ok...updates...

Hmm...1st purchase of the week...

a Bossini umbreLLa...hahaz...
its actuaLLy a popeye umbreLLa for 23SGD...but i got it at a steaL at haLf price during the saLe preview for VIP...hahaz...the benefits of working in a retaiL environment...

Not dat i needed an umbreLLa urgentLy (although the oLd one is pretty discoLoured aLready)...juz tot since it is on offer...y not?..:P


shocking event of the week 1...

UNSW scheduLed to puLL out from Sg...that's kinda sad...since i was considering of studying there...oh weLL...its beta dis way i guess...i dun hav to fan nao bout the tuition fees of studying there...
one of my fren's nick was...serve them rite for being so choosy...LoLz...


shocking event of the week 2...

u wouLdnt beLieve dis but i saw Mr xxx yesterday...LoLz...my first instinct?...turned away immediateLy...noe...y wouLd i wana do dat?...i'm not sure...
I saw him at my house area sommore...wondering wat's he doing here...

I guess he's stiLL staying in Hougang...since i saw him boarded bus no. 112...LoLz...

I'm wondering if i did the correct tink...or shouLd i have went up to him n hav a LiL chat?...it was a moment of a Lifetime afteraLL...LoLz...

Aniway...its over...no pt brooding about it...

I'm reaLLy hav been pondering bout my actions...y haven i got the courage to face him?...难道 i stiLL haven reaLLy Let go ma?...running away from probs again?...i duno...
or mayb i juz dun wan to create ani awkward moments...

SuddenLy i'm reminded of dis song wen i pondering...LoLz...its a nice song...check it out....




KeLLy CLarkson - Because of You

I wiLL not make the same mistakes that you did
I wiLL not Let myseLf
Cause my heart so much misery
I wiLL not break the way you did,
You feLL so hard
I've Learned the hard way
To never Let it get that far

Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewaLk
Because of you
I Learned to pLay on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust not onLy me, but everyone around me
Because of you
I am afraid

I Lose my way
And it's not too Long before you point it out
I cannot cry
Because I know that's weakness in your eyes
I'm forced to fake
A smiLe, a Laugh everyday of my Life
My heart can't possibLy break
When it wasn't even whoLe to start with

Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewaLk
Because of you
I Learned to pLay on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust not onLy me, but everyone around me
Because of you
I am afraid

I watched you die
I heard you cry every night in your sLeep
I was so young
You should have known better than to Lean on me
You never thought of anyone eLse
You just saw your pain
And now I cry in the middLe of the night
For the same damn thing

Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewaLk
Because of you
I Learned to pLay on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you
I try my hardest just to forget everything
Because of you
I don't know how to Let anyone eLse in
Because of you
I'm ashamed of my Life because it's empty
Because of you
I am afraid

Because of you
Because of you



The video's nt much of wat i'm trying to say...more of the lyrics...hahaz...

Frenship is a reaLLy hard think to maintain/have/get it going...wen u reached aduLthood...its even harder den working...working is juz...do do do without thinking sometimes....
not for frenship...frenship is bout connecting/taLking/mending/expanding/expLoring/Learning...gosh..there's juz so many things bout frenship...its goes the same for reLationships...

i shaLL not bLabber on bout dis topic animore...if nt my bLog wiLL become v bored wif every entry taLking bout frenship..hahaz...

Rite now waiting for some furnitures to arrive to my house...its a set of chairs dat my aunt does nt want anymore...she's giving it to us as our's is kinda cannot make it...LoLz....heard dat her's has got some historicaL value and is worth Like thousands?...aLL hearsay onLi...wonder if its true...LoLz....

The reason chairs given to us is dat they r moving house...hahaz..

oh...i juz remembered...my LCD TV is miracuLously "heaLed"...hahaz...it broke down a few days ago (Screen juz went bLank) but the next day was aLive again...LG products...reaLLy needs to think thrice b4 buying Le...LoLz...

My father's sick...he has been coughing non-stop Last nite...it woke mi up @ 4am and i wasnt reaaLLy abLe to sLeep after dat...kinda worries mi...
He went to c doc in the morning n the doc says he's caught a coLd...

Dis dad of mine...sometimes reaLLy makes mi so angry @ him...he's been smoking a Lot LateLy and it is not aiding in his recovery to his Last...ermm...

I feeL dat i haven been a reaLLy gd son...i duno...i juz feeL dat sometimes i'm not doing enough...i couLd hav do more...but i didn't...Laziness perhaps...

He Loves watching documentaries...n he Loves bringing our famiLy to the zoo and macritchie reservoir wen my sis n i were young...kinda miss the days...though we wouLd hav LiL squabbLes during our trip...it has aLways been fun...

to the zoo....i tink its because my father Loves animaLs...hence i'm gonna bring him to the zoo dis father's day...:)

to macritchie reservoir....i tink its because it used to be my parents dating hangouts?...LoLz...tink they took their wedding photos there aLso...no pics to show but i tink i ever heard them mentioning b4...

Suddenly reminded of the song WouLd you be there...LoLz...its a nice song which touches my heart...

I strongly beLieve that even if your frens wouLd not be there for you aLways..at Least your famiLy members wouLd be there...
even if your frens were to lose touch/break frenships wif you one day...at Least your famiLy members wouLd stiLL be there...

At the end of the day...it is stiLL yer famiLy that matters most...frenz might come and go...but fammiLy members wiLL aLways be there supporting you tiLL the day they go...(ok mayb in some famiLies...they dun...LoLz)...sometimes they mite even protect and blessed you in another dimension...I do beLieve in after Life afteraLL...

I'm reaLLy gratefuL aLL dis yrs for having such nice famiLy members...so aLL of you should cherish your famiLy members too....spend more time wif them whiLe they stiLL have the time...be nice to them at Least once in a whiLe...Life's short afteraLL...you wouLdn't want to regret Later...Live Life with not much regrets...dats something i'm trying to achieve...its tough though...But i'm trying...

Signing off with a best-of-the-charmed-moments video...its touching..:~(...enjoy




Casanova's Tears,
1500 Hours


Squall Leonheart...

*11:05 AM .

Sunday, May 20, 2007

Hi aLL...
i haven had a singLe entry for the past 2 weeks....noe i tot i shouLd do my bLog some justice...LoLz...

Today's Qi Long's bday...Happy B day QL!...though yer b day present dis yr is beLated...i sure hope that it is the best of aLL that we've given so far...so wait patientLy...:Pp
May aLL yer wishes come true and be bLessed with good heaLth...

QL...since today's yer speciaL day...den dis paragraph's for you...

She's the most wonderfuL fren one couLd ever have....
aLways putting others above seLf...seLfLess acts that aLways goes unappreciated by peopLe ard her...
She's the one that aLways does the organising of activities without compLain...
She's aLways wiLLingLy baking us cakes without any obLigations...
She's my best fren since forever...
She's abLe to touch peopLe's Heart....
She's fuLL of compassion and Love for others...
She's good @ her culinary skiLLs...
She loves lacy clothings...
She's very nice and LovabLe...super chatty n sometimes crappy...:Pp
She's superwoman (good at work, studies...hmm...spending money!...LoLz)
She has extraordinary dreams...
She has a disLike for carparks...esp the one @ Taka...:Pp
She has a "unique relationship" with KL...:P
She's unpredicatabLe aLL times, compLicated in her thoughts yet simpLe in her actions
She's good natured...a bit of a pessimistic @ times...
Above aLL, she is one heLLuva fren one couLd ever have...You rock ger!...this song's going out to you...enjoy....




"She hangs out every day near by the beach
Having a Heineken faLLing asleep
She Looks so sexy when she's walking the sand
Nobody ever put a ring on her hand

Swim to the oceanshore fishing the sea
She is the story, the story is she
She sings to the moon and the stars in the sky
Shining from high above you shouldn't ask why

She is the one that you'LL never forget
She is the heaven sent angeL you met
Oh she must be the reason why god made a girL
She is so pretty aLL over the worLd

She puts the rythm, the beat in the drum
She comes in the morning, in the evening she's gone
Every Little hour, every second you Live
Trust in eternity, that's what she gives

She Looks Like MariLyn, waLks Like Susanne
She taLks Like Monica and Mary-Ann
She wins in everything that she might do
And she wiLL respect you, forever just you

She is the one that you'LL never forget
She is the heaven sent angeL you met
Oh she must be the reason why god made a girL
She is so pretty aLL over the worLd

She is so pretty aLL over the worLd
She is so pretty
She is Like you and me, Like them, Like we
She's in you and me

She is the one that you'LL never forget
She is the heaven sent angeL you met
Oh she must be the reason why god made a girL
She is so pretty aLL over the worLd"


Something ironic is happening at my void deck area...on my bLock area...there's this maLay red affair going on and then...rite beside my bLock...there's dis white affair going on aLso....how ironic is that...LoLz...

My company has finished its 1st phase of the renovation....hence i've aLready moved into dat new area...itss quite nice...beta den b4 i wouLd say...conducive for working...but nt so much of the interaction noe...

which is kinda good....considering the fact that i wouLdn't hav to face some of my annoying coLLeagues noe...hahaz...i'm a meanie...:P

Hmm...GSS is coming...i can sense a bLoodshed battLe between mi n my money aLready...LoLz...

i've aLready decided wats on my Buying agenda....first n foremost...a pair of sneakers...mayb a jacket...watches....more accessories...n watever comes aLong...hahaz...

okok....mayb i shouLd watch a LiL...but i haven spend money on cLothings for months!...hahaz...

everytime i bLog...i wiLL write bout some hmm...meaningfuL? things....hence dis one is no exception....today i shaLL bLog bout mr xxx....LoLz...

Mr xxx was my secondary sch's best fren....we r inseparabLe...dats wat a Lot of peopLe say n tot...we wouLd do everything together...play basketbaLL...hav Lunch after schooL...take pictures...pLay arcade games (we used to be DDR addicts...LoLz)...participate in schooL's dances n pLays...gossipping...pLaying zero points n netbaLL...even cheating during tests n speLLings...LoLz...u name it...we've done it...

we used to hav a Lot of fren's grp...from dis grp to that grp...we nv faiLed to hav fun n Luffter...

i've read thru aLL the cards that he has given to me b4...none of which were of meaningfuL context....the 1st one he gave me was a card he made himself...its pretty nice...

the last card (i've nv really shown this card to anyone) was a content that goes Like this:

"Dear Delun,

I regretted, really really regretted what i did.
Anyway, it's aLL fine now. ActuaLLy, on Wed (29/11/2000) in Lim's house, i wanted to taLk to you. But i did not summon enough courage to.
Remember this, when you wish upon a star, anything that can happen, wiLL happen."

"Friends Like you are hard to find. i shouLdn't have done what i did. Anyway, we stiLL met."

attached was a gLow-in-the-dark bear which i stiLL kept...i tink he noes i Like glow-in-the-dark stuffs...i stiLL do...:)

TiL now...i stiLL have nt much idea wat is the done n did dat he is referring to...

we did stiLL meet after this card...but not for Long...

How Long has it been?...i've Lost count...5 yrs? 7 yrs?...i guess it doesnt matter animore bcoz nanny, ...i've Learnt to Let go aLready too...PeopLe shouLdnt b Living in the past...but Live for the present n future...though it'LL b nice to remisnice once in a whiLe...

Though Long gone but definiteLy not forgotten....I wana thank him for....

making mi realize wat r best fren for and made of....
cherishing my current frenz even more....
aLL the efforts he's put into dis frenship...
making X'mas an extremeLy memorabLe festive season for me noe...
aLL the jokes he toLd...the gossips we share...the tears we shed...the Luffters we had...
the things he had taught me...
the frenz that he had shown me...
the wonderfuL memories he's Left for me during sec days...w/o him...i tink i'LL b much of a Loner...
the wonderfuL secret santa game...
the laughabLe "oh shit" event....:)
the funniLy created nickname, "Gai and Pelun"...
and the Lists can just goes on...

Above aLL...i wana thank him for appearing in my Life once...i guess everyting happens for a reason...though i'm not sure wat's the reason behind his disappearing act...

it's been a reaLLie wunderfuL 4 yrs...weLL spent i wouLd say...i remembered i used to cry i was 1st informed of going to SGT for my sec sch...it wasnt the Least bit i expected...wat can i possibLy gain from such a sch...Looking back....i'm reaLLy happy that i had not asked for a transfer...everything reaLLie happens for a reason...and to make the best out of it reaLLie depends on oneseLf...

Nanny...i noe that you have been bLaming yourseLf over the yrs for this faiLed frenship...but i can honestLy say that it's not your fauLt...nobody expected that to happen...nobody wans that to happen...its juz...part of growing up...

everybody has got different views and at some pt in Life...we wouLd start to move on...think of wat we reaLLie wan in Life...and perhaps at dat pt of time in his Life...he reaLLie feLt jaded of dis frenship and that he wanted something different...something more exciting...peopLe he couLd reLate more to...

or he mite have feLt that he is the one causing a strain in our frenship...hence his reason for Leaving...it couLd b anything...its definiteLy not just you onLi...no one is to b bLamed...it is afteraLL his Life n decision...he chose the way he wan it...he Live it...

Running away from problems?...or just mere changing his life...i duno...but watever it is...i stiLL wish the best for him no matter where he is...:)

Ending with a beautifuL note is a song he loves very much....i tink he stiLL Likes it....



Casanova's Tears,
1822 Hours


Squall Leonheart...

*2:13 PM .

Sunday, May 13, 2007

歌曲:淘汰
歌手:陈奕迅

曲:周杰伦
词:周杰伦

我说了所有的谎
你全都相信
简单的我爱你
你却老不信
你书里的剧情我不想上演
因为我喜欢喜剧收尾

我试过完美放弃
的确很踏实
醒来了梦散了
你我都走散了
情歌的词何必押韵
就算我是k歌之王
也不见得把爱情唱得完美

只能说我输了
也许是你怕了
我们的回忆没有皱折
你却用离开烫下句点

只能说我认了
你的不安得到你信任
我却得到你安慰的淘汰


Casanova's Tears,
0738 Hours


Squall Leonheart...

*7:19 AM .

Sunday, May 6, 2007

Hey...good day....

iTs been a duLL weekend...LoLz...i've got a weekly report awaiting for updating n here i am bLogging...hahaz...

ActuaLLy...i've got no idea wat to bLog about for dis enTry...so mayb it'LL b short...afteraLL...like i say...its been a duLL weekend...:P

Hmm...time chasing me or i'm chasing time...acTuaLLy tiLL now...i stil do not hav a definite ans for myseLf...hopefuLLy i can hear from aLL who's reading dis now?...LoLz....

oh...i juz cut my hair Last mon...not a Lot would have noticed but iTs inspired by xiao gui...LoLz...

*PondeRs*...eh...i reaLLy duno wat To bLog aBouT aLreaDy....!!!...LoLz...

i wenT to c a primary sch fren of mine's bLog...His recenT enTry depicts aBouT the ConseQuences of ouR acTions...n he used a scenaRio...its something Like Dis...

There's dis day whereby he's r rushing for work...den he wunder if he should take a bus or cab...
den he ended up taking a bus...Wen he boarded the bus...iT was crowded but he managed to grab a seat...den at the next stop...more peopLe boarded the bus...dat Left him thinking...
if he Hadn'T took the Bus...what would Hav happened insteaD...
iTs someThing LidaT Lahz....

But the tink behind dis scenario is Dat...Many a Times...we r aLways DoinG Things wiThout thinking of the consequences...n he reLated dis to his him n his younger Brother's kinship...bLaminG himseLf for not BoThering aBouT his BroTher's Life in The past n not showing comcern for him....

which lead him into being wiTh Bad Company and RecentLy...sentenced to JaiL for DruGs i tink?....n he's reaLLy bLaming himseLf for wat happened to his BroTheR...

I guess its reaLLy a tough time for him?...wat's more he's in TW rite now n his b day juz passed....wat a lousy b day Pressie...

ActuaLLy i feeL Like getting in touched with him but it seems preTTy awkard?...kinda Like so many yrs aLready...

We used to b raTher cLose coz we were also from the same tuition centre n wouLd sometimes pLay footbaLL (Yes...i Do pLay FootbaLL b4...LoLz)...or go to the see saw...pLay some mindLess Catching or Hide n Seek...hahaz...those were the days....

I have seen his LiL Bro b4 back den n he didnt seem aLL dat bad to me...guess bad company's reaLLy changes one's Life...tk goodness my clique's aLL preTTy good-natured n kind-hearted peopLe...:P

Have you ever wanTeD to go back to one point of yer Life n change something dat you have or have nt done?...(I noe that's not possibLe but wat harm wiLL it do to juz tink aBout iT?...afTeraLL...Life's aLL aBout imagination n dReams)...I have definiteLy...so wat izzit dat u wana change?...Hmm...i wouLd definiteLy wana confront my ex best fren...to taLk things out...to understand the probLem n his feeLings...

U mite wana ask...y not do it now?...i feeL...its kinda pointLess aLreaDy...he has moved on...i have moved on...LeT's just LeT aLL the BeauTifuL memories stay in our hearTs...

So much has been said ( Not a Lot actuaLLy)...LoLz...take a moment n ponder the things that Had happened in yer Life...aLL the DramaTic Incidents...the happy moments...the tearfuL ones...the one that you'LL not forget....the one that'LL aLways bring a smiLe to your face everytime it is tot of...the touching one....the recent ones....

izzit aLL aBout Happiness in Life that we sought?...i beg to differ...we cant aLways expect Life to be smoooth saiLing...everyone needs a LiL setback...a LiL Loss...a LiL mishap...to acTuaLLy reaLize and count one's blessing....untiL den...wiLL we reaLLy Learn to cherish n TreasuRe...(Just Like my Pri sch fren)

And Not forgeTTing ThaT without the sour n bitter moments...the sweeT wont b as sweeT...:)

Casanova's Tears,
1952 Hours

P.S.: Share aLL yer ToTs n Experiences @ My RanTinGs!...:P


Squall Leonheart...

*4:57 PM .