Why do people depend on each other?
In the end you're on your own
I'm fine by myself now
I have all the skills I need to survive
I'm not a child anymore ..
That's a lie
I don't know anything
I'm confused
I don't want to depend on anyone
How can i do that ?
Someone tell me .. Someone?
So i'll end up depending on other after all .
X'mas is 4 days and counting...juz had the company's x'mas ceLebration a few days ago... and i was named the best dresser...LoLz...kinda Lame...we had dis theme of dressing up for another coLLeague...den dis coLLeague bought mi a soooo rodeo hat and matching shirt...
den everyone was starting to sing dat jay chou song...hahaz... and i managed to win the voting by a mere 1 vote!..:)
everyone did enjoy themseLves i guess...there was pLenty of fun n Luffter with the rebonding games...
i haven been very unhappy dis few weeks...some days i juz forced myseLf to smiLe during at work...but deep down in my heart...i am reaLLie unhappy...nt those angry unhappy...but somehow meLanchoLic unhappy...
I hav learnt to accept some facts...some reaLities of Life...some truth...
Let bygones be bygones...
I'm going to Lead my Lone Ranger Life once more...not dat i'm not used to it...i'LL juz hav to adapt as it takes time...
Dis yr's X'mas wiLL be w/o 2 of my cLosest frenz...feeLs kinda weird...for the 1st time after 10 Long yrs...i wunder hoe it wiLL b Like...
wiLL i miss them during dat day?...yes i sure wiLL...wiLL i b tot of?..hmm.. i sure hope it wiLL onLi b dis yr...
a LoneLy X'mas every yr wouLd b very saddening...
I dare not wish for too much from dis frenship animore...i juz want everyone to b happy for now...Life is reaLLie short..we shouLd cherish every moment of it and juz do wat we wish to...
my new resoLution is not to b so seLf-centred...sometimes i can get so obssessed wif myseLf dat i negLect others...i kept thinking that i'm a pretty sensitive guy in the past...but sometimes...i feeL dat i hav overLooked some of my frenz feeLing sometimes...
i do not know how they feeL about certain things, i do not know what they r thinking of...i do not care enough for them...
its not easy to b a good fren...it takes a Lot of time, commitment, understanding, patience, trust, etc...
buiLding a frenship...is juz Like buiLding a reLationship...
i've been thinking a bit bout the death topic recentLy...
shouLd i pass away one day...which of my frenz wiLL b there? which of my frenz wiLL stiLL b Left? wiLL my passing away bring back again the cLoseness of the Lost frenship?
I know its pretty siLLy to b thinking of aLL these...but i was thinking of aLL dis on my Long waLk home earLier...
I Love taking Long waLks...whenever i am feeLing down...I wouLd waLk...esp in the night...waLking has a caLming effect on me...
it aLLows me to think thru things...aLthough i might nt hav a concLusion at the end of the waLk...i'LL stiLL b more organised with some thinking...
I Love to sing when i waLk too...and chit chat...juz taLk about anything under the stars...
Hav done dat wif Ceb and Jie...from amk aLL the way to hg...the feeLing was nice...i feeL dat there was aLmost no pretense @ dat time...thinking of it stiLL warms my heart...
Hav done dat wif darren too...aLL the way from PS to Serangoon...den to Hg...he's a great singing companion wen waLking too...(my funni KTV kaki)
waLking wif different peopLe brings about different memories and different feeLings..
but aLL of them r good memories...waLking aLone is aLso a good feeLing...
The pLeasures of the simpLe things in Life...:)
I hav aLways teLL myseLf dat my motto in Life is to Live weLL and Live fuLL... but i reaLized dat most i haven aLways been abLe to do dat...
I rareLy spLurge on myseLf...treat myseLf to some massage i haven too... but i reaLized dat i'm more wiLLing to spLurge on families n frenz...funni huh...kinda contradict the self-centredness dat i mention earlier...
I'm juz nt calculative wen it comes to others i guess...
As the season of giving comes ard the corner, i sincerely (from the bottom of my heart) wish aLL to b happy, bLessed with good heaLth, and reaLLie enjoy the companion of their Loved ones on this memorable day...
Extend and giv yr Love ard to aLL yr Loved ones Juz Like mi giving them to aLL in-reading now...
Merry Christmas...
(Emotions Under Construction - Turn Around; so that you won't see me cry)
I've not bLogged for sometime..bz with re-service in camp and after that..cLearing of my backLog @ work...
Re-service was tough with aLL the mountain-chionging (if you know wat i mean), but the nice thing is that..caught up with some oLd frenz (who weren't cLose @ aLL in the past) and made some new ones
This few days (and weeks ahead)...expect showers after thunderstorms and showers yet again..take care paLs, its coLd out there...
I've been Lying on my bed for a few mins thinking of the things i'm gonna bLog next and re-organising my tots...but i tot i wouLd think beta as a bLog aLong...
This is to the PC members in-reading:
I'm nt sure hoe to bring about this. I tot i hav moved on...but apparentLy I haven. ReaLLie do not want to giv up on u guys and dis frenship. Do you guys reaLLie want to? Ten yrs of frenship is not easy to build. Does it reaLLie meant nothing to you peopLe?
We keep saying that we have tried our best to saLvage dis frenship, but hav we reaLLie? Think again. After aLL that has happened, hav we ever made an effort to actuaLLy sit down and taLked our hearts out? Y do we keep avoiding wen there's a gathering organised? Is this reaLLie what we caLL we have tried?
I have reaLized that our frenship is more based on a Lot of fun rather den reaLLie understanding each other. Of aLL our gatherings, which one was actuaLLy one in which we sat down and bare our hearts out?
We r in serious need of communication, it doesnt works if onLi one is trying, everyone of us pLays a part. We hav to b frank and direct sometimes, speak out hoe we reaLLie feeL bout certain things.
Everybody's in the wrong...I feeL dat sometimes we care too much about each other's feeLing...so much so that it has become unnaturaL...
It has aLready been cLosed to a yr...i guess aLL of you shouLd be more or Less prepared to meet each other again...i reaLLie am not sure what is holding aLL of you back...
I've been thinking back...of aLL the frenships i Have forged...the most i treasured is reaLLie the PC (other den Mr XXX)...i'm nt saying dis bccoz i wana saLvage everything back...but bcoz i reaLLie meant it...
I used to be cLosed to Jie..we wouLd share with me aLL her secrets..and they r aLL aLays weLL-kept..I guess NS has reaLLie drifted us apart..i sort of neglected her due to my NS liabilities..its nobody's fauLt..and den dis incident...has worsen her impression of mi i guess...
I used to think that I am quite cLose to Ceb...I aLways feeL dat as Long as we can feel each other's presence...it is more den enuff even if we seLdom taLk...den i started reading her bLog and reaLized dat things aint aLways the way i assume...hoe i feel may not be hoe she feeLs...
I used to think that mudder, mi and jie wouLd nv faLL out...no matter hoe bad things r...we r stiL a famiLy..mudder and mi has aLways been cLosd too...but somehoe due to dis incident..we sort of drifted a bit too?
I can reaLLie b a bLockhead at times...so sometimes i reaLLie need a LiL feedback, a LiL guidance, a LiL teLL-me-hoe-u-feeL...
I know i have done LittLe for dis frenship...but i reaLLie am trying...sometimes i juz duno hoe to go about doing it...it is reaLLie hard wen we do not know what is everyone's thinking...
Isnt frens aLL about compromising? even if a fren's bad pt irks us, we would stiLL Let it go?..juz bcoz we r reaLLie frenz, and compromising each other's bad pt is li suo dang ran...
In the midst of aLL dis, hav we aLL forgotten hoe we sometimes compLement each other too?...hoe we wouLd sometimes tink the same way about certain things? How we wanted to go traveLLing as a PC grp? Y do we keep focusing on the negative?
Let us aLL forgive but not forget...treat dis as a Lesson weLL-Learnt, and benefit from it...if everybody's wiLLing to giv everyone another chance again...i beLieve everything wiLL work out weLL again..
Am reaLLie tired...Can someone teach me the principLes of frenship again?
Vitamin C - Graduation (Friends Forever)
And so we talked all night about the rest of our lives Where we're gonna be when we turn 25 I keep thinking times will never change Keep on thinking things will always be the same But when we leave this year we won't be coming back No more hanging out cause we're on a different track And if you got something that you need to say You better say it right now cause you don't have another day Cause we're moving on and we can't slow down These memories are playing like a film without sound And I keep thinking of that night in June I didn't know much of love But it came too soon And there was me and you And then we got real blue Stay at home talking on the telephone We would get so excited and we'd get so scared Laughing at ourselves thinking life's not fair And this is how it feels
[1] - As we go on We remember All the times we Had together And as our lives change Come Whatever We will still be Friends Forever
So if we get the big jobs And we make the big money When we look back now Will our jokes still be funny? Will we still remember everything we learned in school? Still be trying to break every single rule Will little brainy Bobby be the stockbroker man? Can Heather find a job that won't interfere with her tan? I keep, I keep thinking that it's not goodbye Keep on thinking it's a time to fly And this is how it feels
[Repeat 1]
La, la, la, la: Yeah, yeah, yeah La, la, la, la: We will still be friends forever
Will we think about tomorrow like we think about now? Can we survive it out there? Can we make it somehow? I guess I thought that this would never end And suddenly it's like we're women and men Will the past be a shadow that will follow us 'round? Will these memories fade when I leave this town I keep, I keep thinking that it's not goodbye Keep on thinking it's a time to fly
